Tuesday, May 02, 2006 well, it's a long time i blog again..(i m always saying this sentence)..lolx..want to share with u guys who is reading my blog.... =)

it was 4 to 5 years back...where i first met this brother who came back to God about near August..this brother has so much joy,so much love,so much fire within himself for God...as life goes on he gets bigger goals like being a shepherd,a CL,a Ul and even in WAM...he puts his heart so much for all these Goals bt soon slowly it just ran off him..many things that he experience in his life that lead him to discouragements n failure which leads him nt to achieve his goals so urgently for he thinks that it is so hopeless..it is so useless..but he told himself i sure try again n again...and many failure still continue to happen..bt he still persevered it all the way..the pain of nt havin a sheep through so many tries..the pain of nt being a shepherd of God's flock..is jus so terrible..bt yet he told himself..i will continue to serve the lord!..as times flies..and he brought a few ppl..bt nobody was retain...he was so sad..he was so frustrated with himself..and he was almost going to give up...and then God spoke to him-"come my child..trust in me..lifting my name up and bringin glory to me is nt easy my child..come to me and i sure help u on the way..hold my hand and i shall walk with you and be at ur side helping you..for i know how much u love me...is nt by how many sheeps u are going to get my child..but is the relationship between u and me.."and he was refreshed and he thank God..and he continue to serve the lord..even though there are so many discouragements and failures and wen all these come he always tell himself this-"i can do it..dun fail..come on..dun feel sad..dun feel discourage...move on move on"..he always tell this in his heart...and until after a few months he was transfered to tertiary grp in DI..he managed to retain a beliver,a brother in simei ITE...and until now that brother who he retain is still serving the Lord..but later that sheep of his was transfered...and he has no more sheep..he continue to bring ppl in...trying all his best...doing watever he can...doin the best for god...and many times he thought of this-"why..why..why do i work so so hard...why did i do watever i can and yet i dun get a sheep...why..."..he was so angry..he was so sad...and then today God spoke to him-"my child,it is not how much sheeps u have that makes me proud..many ppl have sheeps but that doesnt mean they are doing well..they may be hypocrites..dun care abt how ppl look at u..dun care abt how ur leaders look at u wen u dun even have a sheep..be secure with me..come into my hands my child..do wat i tell u to do..just keep on sharing the things abt me..plant a seed in them...trust in me..and i shall prosper u..my child the key to salvation..the real key to salvation is to know me..nt sheeps...it is how much can u perserver on through this relationship that u have with me.."

this brother i m talking about is me,David Chen Jia Shen. ytd i was askin joel why..he reminded me about Habbaku..and it leads me to one thing...and it reminded me of how much i pervered with God..how i continue to praise the Lord..rely on him..how i put my joy in the Lord even until now i dun even have a sheep...so brothers or sisters..it is always nt the number of sheeps u have even though ppl say tat u are only doing well when u have sheeps...that is nt really true..lastly u have to account to God are u just a hypocrite or u really love God and love them..i may nt have any sheeps bt i know Gods real..i m still tryin and fighting on...i dun have a permenant sheep for 5 yrs..bt i still grow..and grow more..i learn even more..and i know God even more...God wants me to speak to all of u who either have sheeps or no sheeps...to those who are shepherds-do u love ur sheeps..do u treat them like ur son or daughter as how God treat u as his son and daughter....do u appreciate ur sheeps that God has given to you..dun be selfish..i m so yeaning to have a sheep..so wantin to have a sheep of my own..bt for 4 yrs i dun have..take real love n care for them..for they are also GODS CHILDREN..and to those who dun have sheeps..-wat are u doin..are u going to let failures hinder u..or are u goin to move on..is ok that u dun have a sheep..the thing that u must do is share the LOVE OF GOD and plant SEEDS INTO THEIR HEARTS!!!...let them know GOD...thats all...as long they have recieve CHRIST...THE WHOLE HEAVEN REJOICES!!....come on...persevere along with me..lets join hands and serve the Lord with all ur heart,with all ur strength...for if u love the Lord..thats wat u will do...and remember..it is always the relationship with God..nt about having sheeps in ur life..is always abt the relationship with God and sharing God to ppl who dunno God..and plant a seed in each and eveyone of those who dunno God... PERSEVERANCE IS ONE OF THE KEYS TO SERVE THE LORD..

ok..see ya guys thats all...move on together ok...buaix guys..!!=)

Dv Jia Shen | 5:10 PM

Wednesday, January 18, 2006 wow...today is another day...well sch started this week..haha...well,looks like our sch has very little gals...lolz...tats sad..hahaha...shld make it become a boys sch..lolz..bt is ok...come sch is to study...really set my mind to study even harder for this yr...gt 2 B's for the last term..now is 2 A's..well,really wan to go to poly..well wan to go TP bt now coz of GPA den i have no choice bt tink will be goin to BYP hiaz...sad....i love TP alots...well,after poly and NS i will be goin to australia to study...well this is my future plan...and soon i wan to be a boss of my own job...i wan to be independent in future...haha....well,,i gtg ler...bb

Dv Jia Shen | 5:02 PM

Thursday, January 12, 2006 this few days..so many problems is fillin me...discoragements and so on...ytd i gt a family quarrel,well beat my bro up...den later run away frm home...come to think of it...is so childish..but it makes me feel so much better....well this mornin send a sms to my daddy...tellin him sorry...argh...there is jus so much problems filling in..and that means growth is comin in...tellin the fact...i am pu siao in to my parents....was so sad last night...i even cried...i really sorry for my mummy tat she need to go through all these....ii really need to look to God...i really want my family to be happy joy and lovin...hais....it was so cold outside...i was shivering...well i was stuck at esplande last night...haha...well tats all for ytd...wahh the day b4 ytd was our DI family day...was suppose to be at sentosa bt coz of the rain it leads us to marina bay...i enjoyed myself...i really wan to thank God for this family that i have...who is dere to be with me...and i really wan to thank God for my jie...who is also dere to help me...though i m childish...i m emotional...bt she is patient...really thank God for u jie!!....so cyazz...bb...post another day...

Dv Jia Shen | 8:02 AM

Monday, January 09, 2006 well,jus came home from rehersal...i am so freakin tired...i dunno how many days i nvr sleep well ler...sianz....my body is aching all over...arh!!well,today rehersal was great...well,heard that some people say tat we the musicianz cannot play good...even say C.M.I...well,was discoraged at first..bt hey we did a great job today...and we will prove this ppl wrong...and the sad thing is tat this ppl are from our church...wat kind of spirit of disunity and discoragement towards or bros and siss....well,anyway is also playing for God...nt for u to listen...so dun give comments...if u wan to give any comments..pls give us encouragements and feedback to improve...bt nt comments to pull us down....well,the day is comin soon...I am playin for the whole district...and is like wahh!!...lolz...feel so frustrated still...sianz...life is so sickening bt theres always a happy ending...aiyah..dun wan to say ler...nt really having a good mood today...cyazz...

Dv Jia Shen | 12:05 AM

Sunday, January 08, 2006 today gt duty...man..today service was rreally total of a holy spirit lead man....haha...its real cools..how i wish every service can like this...bt cannnot coz we are nt perfect mistakes bound to happen...today play pool...lolz...no one beat me man...i only lose by my own hands..haha..is reall coolz....haha...first time i win so many ppl...last time always kanna thrash...haha...i cant wait to challenge new challenger...lollz...o ya...today sermon...wahh...pastor jeff dream really impact me...haha...now i know life is nt always the way u wan it to be...is coolz,...learn new lesson and to apply...thank God.!!...well tommrow den blog bah...cyaz!!

Dv Jia Shen | 12:59 AM

Saturday, January 07, 2006 today another day...lolz...well,was thinkin every day is passing so fast..time jus fly jus like nobody's buisness... --"..really wonder is my spiritual life strong...jus realise that this few weeks been thinkin too much..is it cause of 'insecurity' or because i am 'lonely' or something else...or is it my RELATIONSHIP with GOD!!...i dare..i really dare to say...i am nt really doin well...sianz....really thought to myself..."am i goin to continue to live a life like this"..."wen can i really discipline".."wen can i really get things done"..."WHERE IS MY PASSION FOR GOD"...sins tat i m doin everyday...wen can i really learn to repent..God forgives me...but yet i still dun change...-life full of regrettness..-life full of unworthy joy..wen can i let God dance over me..and wen God iis talkin to me..why do i need to disobey...hmmz...wen is it the day that i really take things seriously...WHEN..arh!!....-is my heart hardened?...though things now tat is happenin to me...but hey God i wan to tell u something...i am totally amazed by you...for love..for your patience...your grace(though i took it for granted)...your forgiveness(though sometimes i dun repent)..God i jus totally AMAZED by you..coz u still love me...and i know the truth..thanks God...Thank you so much...the only person who can really fit into my life is you.....GOD!!...this year i wan to change in so many areas...is jus so endless...haha..for i am nt perfect...-hugs God...Love u God...cyazz....blog againzz!!....

My fav song..-Amazed by desperation band!! holy spirit lead this song!!..coolz...

Dv Jia Shen | 12:34 AM

Thursday, January 05, 2006 well,today stay at home the whole day play maple...sianz....my lvlin is getting slower!!...and so many NOOBS are askin me for help...headache arhh!!!well,wan to change new blogskins...bt they are giving me problems...arhh!!!..sianz...well sch is comin soon...and yet i dunno which class am i goin too..gosh....tat is really retard...a person dunno his class..gosh...bt is ok...jus go school and look can ler...well,have to face school friends again...sianz...faster next year gone and go poly...dun to live in a ITE atmosphere..lolz...haha...really want to go temarsek poly...bt it looks like i cannot ler...-sobs....well,looks like this year is gonna be a tough year agian...well,last year is full of problems...bt thank God i overcome all of them...man..i am still wondering..besides God who else is my best friend...looks like i really dun have...sianz...me wan to have a good friend beside me always...even if have...also last short den gone ler..sianz...my friends are always like tat since young until now..even in church...sianz...sometimes i think,why do i serve so hard and yet things are jus nt the way it shld be...man,it is so tiu lian to be so long in church and i am nt a leader...wat the!!....gt nothin to say to myself...sadzz...sometims i gave all my best...i did watever i can..hmmz...bt i just cant be a leader...arhh...i ask myself-Am I a Hypocrite....shucks man..well,tats all for today bloggin..no mood ler...life is like this...DAMM!!....4gt it...well see ur again in muaizz blog...lolz...

Mood:..........-super sianz.... --ll......

Dv Jia Shen | 11:17 PM

today cg was coolz..at last we broke into a new CG..haha...we are goin to be DI 7 soon...man...this year we will break up into 3 grps again by end of this year...well,trainin up to be a CL..i gonna take care of my grp...so long in church and nt takin care a CG is really shows tat i am really wasting my time...it shows tat i m nt faithful enough...man..how how!!....well the answer is dere bt i am nt takin tat answer...mus really try and try to accept things...is so easy to read a storybook...bt why is it so hard to read THE BIBLE...wat a weird logic...bt tat is in fact the truth...go ask urself...tats why mus be faithful..today cg lots of crappy stuff...example...A.C.T.S this ACTS... the A instead of i sayin ADORATION i said ACCOMODATION...wat the...lolz..is so lame...wah...goin to have DI'S Family Day...bt i got Media retreat...now really gt to choose....it happens on the same day!! argh...tao tia...lolz...man...i love this song-red house frm jimmy hendricks...haha...i keep on listenin non-stop...gt a person to witnees tat...haha..and she is Veronica...lolz...she keep on seein and ask me to change...lolz....lamee....se guan jiu ho...lolz...well,really wan to improve my guitar skills even more...sianz...i am STUCK at this standard...need to improve more...sianz...well tats all for today...will blog toommmrow...cyaz!!

Dv Jia Shen | 12:03 AM

David_XiaoHua_Yoshiro_Chen Jia Shen.
03/101988.
Balestier ITE.
Hope Church Singapore.
Crush:GOD.
My Lover:Jesus